It’s almost surreal to say that I am here finally announcing the opening of my practice at my home in Carrying Place, Ontario! It certainly has been a long time coming, and I am so grateful for the patience that my current clients have had, as well as other beautiful beings that I have yet to hold in my space who have inquired over the past 2+ years.
In some ways, it has felt like a lifetime since this creation was coming into my awareness. I knew that I was going to hold my practice on the land of our new home that we purchased back in 2021, but I never knew all that the road to completion was going to bring. So is life, am I right?
My old branding (if you will) was something that I was never able to “see” on this property. This was something that I had struggled with for a while, as this was how people already knew me. I fought this in my mind for a bit, but there was always a hint of “knowing” that it was needed.
“Everything for a time” was the words that echoed through my mind, that were shared with me by a dear friend years ago, and Samureiki had had its time. Not only did I know that my business name was going to change, but also my services and space. I didn’t necessarily know what that would all look like at the time, but over the course of serving my last client in Belleville as Samureiki, until this year, it has all unfolded exactly as it had all been planned by the creator long ago.
Putting up a structure here in Prince Edward County, and during a global pandemic had brought forth some trials and tribulations. Permits being one, and supply chain & labour issues being a close second. All of these things are beyond my control. There were times that it all was quite frustrating and emotional for me, for I had all these expectations of being up and running much sooner than tomorrow.
The process of all of it has brought me a lot of teaching, I must say. I surely had to practice releasing expectations and embracing patience. You know the cliché saying “Trust the process”? Well, that was the only thing I could do, even though I was unsure as to why at the time.
Little did I know that I was going to be hit unexpectedly by a very personal family struggle that was going to have my husband away for two months with very little contact between us and a whole lot of self-healing needing to be done alone, causing a complete pause on the project all together. Surrender was the greatest teaching of this time for me. It is not an easy one, but one that I needed to step deeply into, and honestly it was more forced than voluntary.
I then started coming back to participating in group offerings online, where I ended up finding and reconnecting with some of the most beautiful soul family and support that I have ever received in this lifetime.
I had previously signed up for a year-long breathwork certification as well, which had begun the day after my husband embarked on two months of his own deep work. This was not planned (per se), but it was orchestrated divinely. There were also other groups of teachings that I had joined, as well as holding some of these spaces with a close Shamanic sister of mine. The universe really began to show me that I needed all of this time before opening. I had more work to do than I originally had thought.
Then there was the land. I had not from the beginning here, been in conversation with what this land wanted, or didn’t want. I did not communicate with it, in the ways that I know to do with my Shamanic background, but rather I was in a space of eagerness to get things up and going so I could serve again. The other two locations that I had served from in the past were rented spaces in buildings that were already erected. This time was much different. This was the property that we had purchased and we’re going to literally dig into it. There was no asking then, and looking back it was all about taking. I am very strong in my opinions of consent, and yet I was not honouring thy great Mother (Earth) and asking what she wanted or offering anything to her. I like to think of myself as a good communicator, yet I was not communicating with her.
When this realization came in it hit me hard. I felt guilty and selfish. I allowed myself to sit with those feelings and to begin to converse with Gaia, Great Spirit, and the ancestors of this land, the stewards. This was not an overnight event where all was right in the morning. It too took time. I came back to prayer, I brought offerings, I listened, and boy was I learning and when things started to flow smoother than they had for the plus 2 years, I knew.
Suddenly there were no more delays, crews of all trades showed up, all at once at times, and as they did, they worked so cohesively together, that witnessing it was like watching a dance that was perfectly choreographed. Everybody from that time, that had a hand in the completion of our structure in one form or another were beyond wonderful and so respectful to work with.
Today, in this moment, I sit with excitement in my belly and gratitude in my heart. For tomorrow it all comes to fruition. Though things, processes, events, and such were a meandering path, the one thing that has stayed consistent for me through it all has been my prayer. My prayer for this space, my studio home, Nurture By Nature, is to bring in community. A community where ALL bodies are welcomed to step in, to heal, to be vulnerable, to speak, to sit in quiet, to be held, to receive, to show up as themselves in every aspect of life; to be loved. I will do my best to hold this prayer for each one of you who comes inside, leaving judgement behind.
I look forward to seeing the faces and feeling the souls of all who enter.
Sam
xo